In my quest for core strength, I've been doing a lot of planking recently and one night last week, I did my #plankaday in my sports bra. I made the mistake of looking down and practically burst into tears as a result. My tummy, it just looked so...so saggy. I hadn't previously realized the full effects of pregnancy on my body. Sure, I knew that my boobs weren't what they used to be, but I didn't think they were bad. The saggy tummy realization caused me to rip off my bra and see that my chest is in the same shape. OH...MY...GOD.
Fast forward to today. I was at Dick's this morning to pick up a new resistance band (I broke my old one this week) and noticed that they had running shorts on clearance. I grabbed a pair of mediums (smalls just seemed so small) and paid just $5.98 them. When I got home and tried them on, I realized two things. First, the mediums were big (yay)! I never really saw myself wearing a size small, but that seems to be the norm for me these days. Such a victory. The second, and most important thing is that I have really great legs. I'm fortunate to be tall and (now) lean with some muscle definition. All of my hard work over the last year plus has really paid off for my gams!
I've never been proud of my body. As someone who survived an eating disorder, I clearly have some residual body image issues. The recent realization that my upper body is showing evidence of mommyhood didn't sit well with me. However, seeing a really great part of my body helped to put things into perspective. My chest is the way it is because I proudly breastfed my daughter for 15 months. She was a gloriously fat baby who never had a single ounce of formula and I love the fact that my body was able to provide for her. What I saw earlier this week is evidence of that triumph, not something to be ashamed of. My legs look this way now because I've worked my ass off in the gym. I may not be able to significantly improve my chest, but I can certainly keep working on and show off my rockin' legs! Now, I have a new reason to do a few more squats.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to put on a short skirt and then find my husband. ;)