We are in the early stages of a massive restructuring at work. As a result, I'm not sure who my boss will be, what my role will be (if I'm still employed at the end of this), or where my office will be located. We've been told that we will all need to interview for the new roles in the new structure, but those haven't been finalized yet. I have great faith in my current boss and since learning this news two weeks ago, have been confident that both he and the rest of our team will handle the new structure well. Most of the time, I have good thoughts and believe that I will have a solid role in the new structure, but there are moments when I'm not so confident. I've been told that I'm valued and that I don't need to worry about finding a job outside of our company. That being said, there are moments when I worry that they're just hinting at the fact that I will likely have a role, but there's no guarantee that the role will be at my same level or compensation.
After opening the mail, I came upstairs to get some work done while N played. I was sitting at my computer with her behind me, playing on her keyboard. Given my stress level after opening the contract, the noise of her banging on the keys was driving me berserk and I was trying really hard not to snap. I turned around to look at her and she smiled and asked me to play with her. Then she squeezed my face and said "Mommy, let's do something fun." I crawled on the floor with her and started spelling out names with her letter blocks. After a few minutes, she pulled out her toy helicopter and asked me to help because she couldn't get it to turn on. I simply flipped a hidden switch and it started working. She responded with "You fixed it! Mommy, you always fix things."
This child has faith in me that I don't always have in myself. She's right though - I do always fix things. From her perspective, that means cleaning up messes and fixing boo boos, but I am a naturally a problem solver. If I end up in a difficult employment situation, or worse, if I end up unemployed, I will find a way to fix it. I'll prove myself and be promoted or I'll find another job. I'm going to trust her comment and follow the confidence she has in me and just sign the contract.